After Forever

"The body of Benjamin Franklin, Printer, lies here, food for worms; but the work shall not be lost, for it will appear once more in a new and more elegant edition, revised and corrected by the Author." [self-written epitaph] Benjamin Franklin

Years ago a thought crossed my mind about death. I realized that our spirits are material in nature because when we're alive something is there and when we die it leaves. I remember hearing about scientific studies that determined our physical bodies lose weight at the moment we pass away.

That made perfect sense to me, so naturally I thought about how my spirit got inside this body to begin with. Common sense tells me if my spirit can leave the body, there must have been a point it entered, the same way.

I was a terrible Biology student in High School. Not because I wasn't interested. I have actually always been fascinated with the meaning of life. It was because I was never satisfied with just memorizing the physical functions and details of life to get a good grade.

I wanted to know why.

In my opinion, if you're willing to stop short of going beyond what you can see with one eyeball looking through a microscope, then it's all a waste of time ultimately. It's really quite shallow. It might help here on Earth while we're alive but in the end it's all meaningless.

The teacher would talk about millions of sperms swimming to find an egg. Instead of taking notes, I would then daydream about the sperm itself. It has a head and a tail to swim. I heard it doesn't have eyes or a nose, so it can't see or smell where it's going. Somehow it's programmed by someone for one purpose. No matter how you describe it, this little polliwog looking thing has intention. Does it have a soul?

For my poor Biology teacher's sake let's assume it doesn't and the egg doesn't either. At what point does the spirit and soul enter that growing organism in it's Mother's womb?

This is why I became a Born Again Christian.

Sure I had spiritual revelations, growing up as a kid but in our culture, I was taught not to trust those emotional feelings. I was supposed to just deal with the facts and believe in what could be proven. So actually I think I did exactly what was expected of me by society; I proved that the best that science had to offer could not answer the deeper questions in life.

Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies John 11:25

Jesus showed us how we will be resurrected one day in new bodies with that same exact spirit that left our bodies at physical death. That actually makes more sense to me than, when we die our weighty material spirit ceases to exist and is annihilated into nothingness.

One thing I did learn in school was there is just as much inner space as outer space. You can never stop cutting a material thing in half to get nothing.